Saturday, April 22, 2006

Saterday Recollections

There comes a point in a woman's life where the empty overtures of men, the abundant flowers, and sunshine of the world are equated with horseshit.

One is quick to state, "What an insolent and unworthy girl! She has the world at her feet and she still asks for more."

What is at your feet? Ultimate happiness for you may be a thing I dread.

My happiness will no longer be dependent on others.

If I depend on another person's wanton mood then how will I live my life?

My whole life, I sought the approval of family, friends, and the community.

There is a realization that I am living a life like a marionette and my master is the worries of "what will people think?".

Snip the strings that tie you before it is too late!

9 comments:

Rampurple said...

u should live for your own satisfaction and be dependant on urself....

u have to see if YOU'RE happy... do u like who u r and how ur living?

Zanzounito said...

rampurple-
that's a good question...being a lebanese girl with a family who's very traditional, my life is shaped by them tremendously. I am beginning to feel that my family's idea of what's best for me is really not what's best..

what I am most bitter about is the fact that I am graduating from a university that I really did not want to go to in the first place.

ATC-how's it going?!?!!

first thing: how can our parents tell us which lives to lead when they were free to live their own life?

The situation you are in is a very difficult and I have had first hand experience with it as well (although your feelings for BM may be stronger than any I have felt for a man).

If I recall right, you are a Muslim woman. I am sure you have heard this before and hope you do not get upset when I say that it is a very bad idea to marry a non-Muslim..you have heard of all the reasons and the "laws" were made for our own benefit

Yes, it is YOUR life and YOU are free to do what you want..hamdillah for free will..but for me I would not marry a guy outside my religion because he does not believe in the oneness of God or not one at all..how could I sleep with a man like who associates partners with our Lord?

By writing this, I am not intending to let your spirits down or chastize you for loving a non-Muslim..I know with all my heart the predicament you are in..

I DO want to know what happens though, so please keep me updated :)

BeeJ said...

There is a realization that I am living a life like a marionette and my master is the worries of what will people think...and the stalkers who are at bay if I may add. The man2ousheh rocked that morning!

I may also add that ATC is a skilled shooter. You just gotta hand her a rifle...oh and a bag of cookies made by Famous Anus. lol.

Zeina...this will all vanish after you have sorted out your exam situation.

Zanzounito said...

beej-u r very insightful

Zanzounito said...

ATC,

I expect my parents to give me the freedom to do as I please but at the same time I would do the same for my future children. There is a difference, though. The way I would raise my children is to show them the path and if they chose not to follow it (which they won't because my the path will be so friggin' awesome), then they will learn on their own.

Your decision has already been made..it's late I want to add more but everyhthing's blurry..i don't know you well, but i do know that u will find a way to make it happen..have faith and everything will fall into place

BeeJ said...

Zeina, i'm serious! ATC is just not giving us more information

BeeJ said...

ATC, I think Zeina is just fed up with your long paragraphs, hence her concise reply. Can we please know more about Famous Anus' cookies. Ratings please.

Zanzounito said...

that's not true ATC...I actually welcome your long paragraphs and am happy to read...

beej- mishkaljeh inta! I still need an explanation about the STALKER quote..I will catch you online mister!

BeeJ said...

oh my god oh my god. Hand me some tissues. This is a very emotional moment for me you guys.